Well its been a while since my last post. The past few months has been hectic..... yeah hectic would be a correct word. The process of searching myself(um... some things have settled but still searching) and most sad thing is the passing of a loved one.
I find myself asking this question sometimes when i watch jdramas or anime, why am i born here instead of japan or somewhere else, where money... isn't looked upon that much... or there are places where i can escape to.. without having to spend tons of money, like in japan where and when u are sick of the city life all you need to do is to head to a station and u can go to the countryside.... escape............................. escape from your family, friends, relatives, who keep asking you, "so wat are you doing now?" "so wat are your plans for the future?" well at least some of them stop after asking that question...... but there are just some 三姑六婆 who says more things after that and all u can do is just feel embarressed and smile and say yes yes.... well.. i've got one thing for u.. u are just my grandma's relative.. not my freaking family for christ sakes.. so shut the fuck up... u have no right to judge me.....
Why isn't society able to accept someone who lives life by the day, why is there a conception of "failure to plan = plan to fail" i know.. the least i could do is to find proper work and at least return the favour to my parents for bringing me up all these years...... but... thing is idk where am i headed.. or where should i head... even though my parents just say go straight into everything or any work u can find and then see whether its the right job for you.... well thats true.. but working a while then quitting from the job... isn't something the society accepts. which company would want to employ someone who works for 1 month who then says he/she quits. arghh... fuck it i don't know what the fuck i'm saying >.>
Oh well, at least my ass is enrolled into studying for an advanced dip in travel tourism and hospitality work and study program thats why i said i'm settled for now. well work and study although it might be tough... work 6 days and study for one full day ; ;.. hopefully my ipod can thru these 2 coming years.. at least i know that in this sector my ass will still be employed lol.. i hope... haha.....
Details of the Death of Lai Sow (Maternal Grandmother)
Name: Mdm Lai Sow
Age: 87
D.O.B: 1920
ToD: 1837
D.O.D: 25/02/2007 二月初八
Relationship: Maternal Grandmother
God Bless your soul.
Yesterday i just finished watching an anime by the name of "Welcome to the N.H.K" the main story is about a male protagonist who is a hikkikomori (Definition: Individuals who refuse to leave their parents' house, and isolate themselves away from society and family in a single room for a period exceeding six months. While the distinctiveness of the phenomenon varies depending on the individual, some youths remain in isolation for years, or in rare cases, decades.) Well. its quite an interesting show abt it... lol.. even talks abt the addiction to online games. as the story was progressing i myself actually saw a part of me somewhere in the show. Obsession of games, not willing to find work.. well... lol.. at least i haven't shut myself off to society. my unwillingness to get out of the house is to save watever money i have left. theres a few parts in the show thats quite true. Like when the male lead who got so damn hungry cos he didn't have money to buy food cos hes not working and his parents had to stop sending him money due to some reasons. I guess the onli time a person actually gets a turn for the better is when he/she doesn't have food or water to drink... then i guess you'll force your ass to start working. well dun spoil anything else.. please d/l the show and watch.. very nice lol.....
P.S Bolded part.. i do not know whether i am just finding a reason or an excuse of bluffing myself or anything..
omfg can you believe it... i'm telling myself all lies -.- damn u donovan... damn it ... arghhh........
fucking signing off...... take care pple... frens and family.....
